Another year is nearly gone and I hate to see it leave. For all of us 2006 will be a special year in our memories because it was the year that Brokeback Mountain came into our lives.
It was a wild and crazy year for me too. Seeing the movie "preview" for the first time left me stunned. I watched it online at Yahoo that one night in early January and was just stunned  The fight to keep the movie in the local theaters for weeks after it was supposed to leave was fun and a real rush. I was in a depression because the place I worked for had closed in December of 2005 and medical issues were also becoming apparent. The search for our Brokeback Mountain in Vermont lifted me up so high and kept me going. It gave my life meaning and a reason to fight for my life in that hospital. Although the search was slow, often depressing, full of happiness and sadness, it was thrilling nevertheless. The sight of each new possible Mountain looming in the distance took my breath away. In the end, the realization that I would not find a Mountain before the year was over was heartbreaking. Now that the calender is just hours away from changing to January 2007, Spring is only a heartbeat away. (Thanks once again for the Brokeback Mountain Calendar, Matt! )
In 2007, we will have our Brokeback Mountain. I intend to start on it as soon as Spring is in the air.
I am reposting my Message from December 6, 2006 which I sent here when I returned from my final walk up a Mountain for the year. Hope you enjoy it once again. If I decide to be home tonight, I will post my last message of 2006 minutes before the year ends.
Don't forget our website http://www.brokebackmountainvermont.com
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007 TO EVERYONE!
+PEACE+
John
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Wed Dec 6, 2006 9:12 pm
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"john" <john@brokebackmountainvermont.com>
I am still here...waiting for winter to start and more importantly for
Winter to END.
Someone sent me a "lead" on a Mountain so I decided to take a ride today.
I liked it. It was out in Northeast Vermont. I found a semi-trail and
started walking up the mountain. The leaves are all gone and
everything was brown. The wind was howling around me and the empty
trees swayed back and forth. Other than the wind, everything was
silent. No people, no cars, no noise, not even the sound of the birds
in this blustery weather.
I sat down on an old tree log. I sat there alone for a long time
listening to the wind blowing through the empty trees. The loneliness
of that mountain, at that moment in time, pierced my soul. I looked up
into the sky and for some reason and for many reasons, I cried. The
tears streamed down my face as I cried for Jack and Ennis, I cried for
every person in the world who loves someone but is persecuted for it
because that love doesn't conform to the standards of the rest of the
world. I cried for everyone who loved Brokeback and who look forward
to our Mountain yet to be. I cried because I couldn't make our
Mountain a reality this year. I thought about so many things while I
sat there, I think I cried for nearly every possible reason in the
world. Most importantly, I cried for me.
I was on that Mountain nearly 1 and 1/2 hours. I was cold, in distress
and wanting to go home. I slowly made my way back down the Mountain
all the while thinking, thinking and thinking. (I think that I think
too much
The best part of my trip was that my time on the Mountain today did
give me some inspiration and I found myself with new and bold ideas
that I never thought of before. Maybe those ideas will help me find a
Mountain even faster in the Spring, before everyone forgets about
Brokeback Mountain.
I want you to know that just because this group and our main website
sit silently waiting for Spring and natures new life to come back to
us, it does not mean that I have forgotten Brokeback Mountain. I think
about it EVERY single day without exception.
Thanks for all the private emails too. I appreciate them very much. I
read each one and they all mean so much to me.
I'll post again soon, definitely before Christmas. I hope you all do
the same. It would make me happy to keep hearing from all of you!
John
(Fresh off the Mountain)
December 6, 2006
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I am still here...waiting for winter to start and more importantly for Winter to END.
Someone sent me a "lead" on a Mountain so I decided to take a ride today.
I liked it. It was out in Northeast Vermont. I found a semi-trail and started walking up the mountain. The leaves are all gone and everything was brown. The wind was howling around me and the empty trees swayed back and forth. Other than the wind, everything was silent. No people, no cars, no noise, not even the sound of the birds in this blustery weather.
I sat down on an old tree log. I sat there alone for a long time listening to the wind blowing through the empty trees. The loneliness of that mountain, at that moment in time, pierced my soul. I looked up into the sky and for some reason and for many reasons, I cried. The tears streamed down my face as I cried for Jack and Ennis, I cried for every person in the world who loves someone but is persecuted for it because that love doesn't conform to the standards of the rest of the world. I cried for everyone who loved Brokeback and who look forward to our Mountain yet to be. I cried because I couldn't make our Mountain a reality this year. I thought about so many things while I sat there, I think I cried for nearly every possible reason in the world. Most importantly, I cried for me.
I was on that Mountain nearly 1 and 1/2 hours. I was cold, in distress and wanting to go home. I slowly made my way back down the Mountain all the while thinking, thinking and thinking. (I think that I think too much
The best part of my trip was that my time on the Mountain today did give me some inspiration and I found myself with new and bold ideas that I never thought of before. Maybe those ideas will help me find a Mountain even faster in the Spring, before everyone forgets about Brokeback Mountain.
I want you to know that just because this group and our main website sit silently waiting for Spring and natures new life to come back to us, it does not mean that I have forgotten Brokeback Mountain. I think about it EVERY single day without exception.
Thanks for all the private emails too. I appreciate them very much. I read each one and they all mean so much to me.
I'll post again soon, definitely before Christmas. I hope you all do the same. It would make me happy to keep hearing from all of you!
John
(Fresh off the Mountain)
December 6, 2006
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I have officially put our search for Brokeback Mountain, Vermont on hold for the Winter months. It will be difficult to look for a Mountain in the cold and snow, which is coming soon.
UNofficially, I will continue to search for a Mountain if time and other circumstances permit me to, between now and the time the snow starts falling on my head. I won't necessarily be reporting those results unless I have incredible news to report. For all intents and purposes though, our search is on hold until Spring and warm weather return.
It is my hope that as the snowy, cold and dark winter months drag on, you will not forget Brokeback Mountain or our search for our own Brokeback Mountain. If you loved Brokeback Mountain as much as I do, I know you'll be here when our search for Brokeback continues in Spring 2007.
As I write this I am very sad. It was my hope to already have our
Mountain. I feel so alone now. This Mountain Search was invigorating
and gave me a renewed love of life. I will keep that hope and love
alive inside me during the long winter.
I will provide occasional updates on the website www.brokebackmountainvermont.com and Blog entries during the winter to renew your hope that I will pick up where I left off and that we WILL have our own Brokeback Mountain in Summer 2007.
Please send me an email (john@brokebackmountainvermont.com) from time to time during the winter. It'll be nice to hear from all of you!
Until Spring comes, keep Brokeback Mountain alive in your heart!
John
November 7, 2006
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Hi everyone!
Does anyone want to start a little cow and calf operation?
Oh wait..sorry...my mind wandered
What I was going to say is that I will be going out to look once again for OUR Brokeback this week. I have been out fairly often but I dont see any reason to post here the fact that I came up empty handed on my search. I'd rather bear all the frustration myself and not say anything here.
As I said before, it is getting late in the year and the possibilty is strong that we may not find OUR Brokeback THIS year. I really hate to have to wait through the winter for Spring to come. I have, however, decided that I may "cut corners" to make this happen before winter sets in. Cutting corners simply means I may just take ANY Mountain that does not already have a name. I hate to make people wait and I hate waiting. This driving around the State is making me extremely frustrated but as I have said before many times, I won't give up because our Mountain is out there. I just have to find it.
It would be so great to find the Mountain THIS year before winter. If I do, I will then have all winter to contact the State and have them set up a meeting in the community where the Mountain is located. I can go to those meetings, put on my boxing gloves and duke it out with anyone that tries to resist our naming the Moountain. If all goes well and we get clearance from the State during the winter, we will have an official Dedication Ceremony on the Mountain in the Spring of 2007!
I will let you know how the search goes later this week.
Also, remember, our Brokeback Party is Saturday, October 21st in Essex Junction, Vermont. We will be watching Brokeback Mountain and munching out on snacks and then after we'll just hang out and talk. We'd like to see a lot of people come, so please try to come if you can.
Email me and let me know!
John
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