My Trip To A Mountain Today (My Thoughts On Brokeback)
This entry was posted on 12/6/2006 9:14 PM and is filed under uncategorized.
I am still here...waiting for winter to start and more importantly for Winter to END.
Someone sent me a "lead" on a Mountain so I decided to take a ride today.
I liked it. It was out in Northeast Vermont. I found a semi-trail and started walking up the mountain. The leaves are all gone and everything was brown. The wind was howling around me and the empty trees swayed back and forth. Other than the wind, everything was silent. No people, no cars, no noise, not even the sound of the birds in this blustery weather.
I sat down on an old tree log. I sat there alone for a long time listening to the wind blowing through the empty trees. The loneliness of that mountain, at that moment in time, pierced my soul. I looked up into the sky and for some reason and for many reasons, I cried. The tears streamed down my face as I cried for Jack and Ennis, I cried for every person in the world who loves someone but is persecuted for it because that love doesn't conform to the standards of the rest of the world. I cried for everyone who loved Brokeback and who look forward to our Mountain yet to be. I cried because I couldn't make our Mountain a reality this year. I thought about so many things while I sat there, I think I cried for nearly every possible reason in the world. Most importantly, I cried for me.
I was on that Mountain nearly 1 and 1/2 hours. I was cold, in distress and wanting to go home. I slowly made my way back down the Mountain all the while thinking, thinking and thinking. (I think that I think too much 
The best part of my trip was that my time on the Mountain today did give me some inspiration and I found myself with new and bold ideas that I never thought of before. Maybe those ideas will help me find a Mountain even faster in the Spring, before everyone forgets about Brokeback Mountain.
I want you to know that just because this group and our main website sit silently waiting for Spring and natures new life to come back to us, it does not mean that I have forgotten Brokeback Mountain. I think about it EVERY single day without exception.
Thanks for all the private emails too. I appreciate them very much. I read each one and they all mean so much to me.
I'll post again soon, definitely before Christmas. I hope you all do the same. It would make me happy to keep hearing from all of you!
John
(Fresh off the Mountain)
December 6, 2006
